Hi and welcome to the Art of Onward!
In this human experience we all share, things happen, don't they. Unexpected things. Some we welcome, and some we really don't.
Like car accidents! I was hit hard on my drive to church 6 weeks ago. So hard, I have been recovering from a severe concussion - and that's apart from the back, shoulder, neck pain.
I think the most difficult aspect of these injuries was the fact I was not allowed to read and also was told to minimize my screen time. And I had just been working on a writing project.
Next is the memory loss and the jumbled thoughts and words. It took me 15 minutes to remember the word for "license plates" a few days after the accident. Come on brain!
Frustrating. I felt time slipping past me every day of these past six weeks. I missed appointments and spent the first three weeks basically forced to rest. And getting annoyed with what I felt was excruciatingly slow progress.
Then bad news about dishonesty in a friendship I truly valued. That is still a painful pill to swallow for me. I don't deal well with dishonesty.
And an insurance company that is somehow quite comfortable not responding to me, my doctors, or the bodyshop that is still fixing the car. After twenty years, my first accident.
I'm sure you have had your moments these past two months as well, of things not being as you feel they should be. Physically, spiritually, or mentally, perhaps.
HOW do we keep these human experiences from crushing us? How can we look in the face of hardship and see light and hope and remember there is good to be found in all experience?
It's hard! And I have to say, I've had a few moments of complete despair, as I felt overwhelmed and just plain small - and broken in a literal sense - in the face of it all.
How do we find the good in it?
There is Power in a Decision.
It's the one thing we do have control over - what we DECIDE.
It's like the day I DECIDED I would turn my story and journey into something that helps others in similar emotional pain as I was.
Like the time I DECIDED to take the life coaching course so I can better serve those in my path.
When I DECIDED to heal. Slowly, step by step, not skipping ahead but painfully taking each step.
Like when I DECIDED to regain my stomach muscles after surgery and began to do yoga.
In these past weeks since the accident I have made some more decisions:
1. When I'm downward spiralling, I consciously list things and people in my life I am grateful for.
ie. "I am grateful for .... " And I do this until my spirit feel lighter, and my perspective is restored.
2. I forced myself to be grateful for the rest I was now needing to allow myself, to be patient and receive the gifts of those moments. It's been years.
3. Having this time of contemplation allowed me to make realizations of what I have tolerated in my life up until now. And I have decided to draw some much needed, new boundaries as a result.
4. Repeat daily: Every day, in every way, I am getting better and better.
5. I will not allow triggers of past events to rule my now. I will stay vigilant and aware of what those are.
But it wasn't until a few days ago when I was listening to a coaching call from the programs I am taking when this hit home:
When things feel off, wrong, or it feels like all is working against us and our dreams,
CALL FORTH THE GOOD NOW.
And I did! I was driving as I was listening, and yelled it out over and over:
"I call Forth the Good Now!"
If the content of our life is the curriculum of our life, we have the gift of knowing deep within our hearts that everything happens for a higher purpose. Not necessarily how we would wish it to be, but there it is nonetheless. We are always learning.
It is well within our place to reach out to the Divine and call forth the good! If frustration or sadness is clouding our vision, we can call forth the good to be revealed!
Even just a glimpse helps. It often guides us to more.
Remember we live in a friendly universe. Isn't that such a comforting thought?
Remember the Divine wants us to learn, yes, but also wants us to have a life we would love, and that includes showing us the Good we sometimes cannot see on our own.
My recovery is not yet complete, and my words still get jumbled. After a few hours of focus, my brain still shuts down. It's the most bizarre experience. I enjoy photography and often film things, so I was getting set up to film a simple shot, when I suddenly couldn't remember which button to push on my camera to record. Ridiculously mortifying. And very humbling. My muscle memory just disappeared. And my brain did not have the capacity to compensate.
But I have learned now, when I feel like I can't see it, I call forth the Good now. And every time I receive a glimpse, I know all is coming together as it should.
I hope you receive some encouragement from this post today.
So much Love to you.